Today, in my world, the square peg and round hole are dancing.
My controlling nature is taking notes from my supportive side.
In the past, my nature was to dominate when I felt pressure. I argued instead of listening. I focused on tasks to avoid my feelings. I was impatient.
Thus, stretching into my supportive qualities is a shift for me.
Square and Round are skeptically checking each other out within me. My controlling nature and my supportive stretch are commingling!
It’s not just about what I want to create in my life. Yes, I want to flex into my non-dominant ways of being: supportive, gentle, loving, patient, committed, easygoing, brave, connected.
It’s also about addressing the misbeliefs that created the “ways of being” I’m not proud of. That is the true challenge.
Honoring the misbeliefs and scenarios that created my defense mechanisms has been a long process. I am grateful for the care and guidance I received as I took on those memories and challenges. Studying Spiritual Psychology and Heart-Centered Leadership helped me know who I’ve been and who I get to be.
New ways of being require practice. I’ve had thirty-plus years to hone my defense mechanisms. I want to shift that old story in every moment. And yet, I get to be careful of spiritual bypass. Shifting my way of being without processing my feelings can be detrimental. I get to be aware of what is going on inside. Then, I get to shift.
My definition of spiritual bypass is “shifting my doing/being without awareness of what is happening inside my body, mind and heart.”
By recognizing where we have been, who we have been, we allow the ego to loosen its grip on protecting our psyche. As we address the fears and pain from our past, we allow ourselves to experience each moment purely and from our authentic self, instead of from the wounds of our past.
So, today, Round meets Square. This is my soul, my authentic self, my loving, supportive, joyous nature shaking hands with my ego, my fears, my wounds, my shame.
My self-defense mechanisms are walking down the street with my authentic, pure, innocent, open-hearted inner child. They appear an odd pair. They refused to interact for over 30 years. Now, here we are, round meeting square, holding each other high, compassionately and gracefully learning to love each other anew.
Here’s to each of us embracing our edges and our curves. Life is short. Let’s lean on each other as we find our edge and explore further.
I’ll be right there with you.
P.S. Only you know the truth inside you. I believe we get to live in a world where every human is awake, free and living life from that expansive place within. I would love to explore that potential within you through the Awakening Freedom program. We are accepting two final applications in 2021. Learn more here: www.andrealuzon.com/awakening/