It is remarkable how capably the heart shifts from fear to love. Doubt rears up to paralyze me, then the most amazing story unfolds to help bring me back into wonder and amazement at the power I have when I tap into the expansiveness that is available to me.
My dog and I were walking around a nearby park when I felt the winds of doubt surging. I had experienced this feeling many times before and it often led to me giving up on myself. Over the last year and a half, I have been pushing and stretching myself to bring my gifts forward in the world. As I challenge myself to grow, I am coming up against old thought patterns of unworthiness. On this particular day, my unworthiness story was triggered by my mother.
While on my walk, I was on the phone with my mom. I was sharing with her my excitement about my breakthrough about bringing my energy integration practice to a new level. She asked if she could have a recording of how I was coaching people. She wanted to know what I was saying to them that made me so successful. I could tell by the questioning that she had forgotten the most general details of my work.
The story I started to tell myself was that she didn’t care enough to remember my path. For a moment, I believed my mother was too busy in her retirement to remember my passion and my work. I breathed through the triggering moment and the false story unfolding in my mind. I stayed calm and loving, and walked her through my process of energy integration with my clients. Interestingly, when I tell others about my work, I sometimes feel fear and ego rise up. My ego gets me doubting and wondering if I am sharing my work with someone who will judge me. As I shared my work with my mother, I worried that she wouldn’t accept me. Then, she began to tell a story of her own healing power.
My mother shared how she had been doing healing work for years. Years ago, she felt surprised when her healing efforts worked. Now, she is comfortable with it and expects it to work. What my mother shared was mind over matter. When an illness or a physical pain rises up inside of her, she is able to focus on it and send it away. She spoke about sending away the common flu and cold. She spoke about sending away a pain in her hip that almost took her down. She laughed a bit as she was sharing her story. I could tell that she, too, was worried about being judged or thought of as strange, but she could sense that I was not judgemental. I listened with interest and amazement as my mom shared one of her greatest strengths. She can sense when an unhealthy change is starting in her body. She spends time focusing on that change, that pain, that illness, and she is able to tell it goodbye. My ability to shift out of my unworthiness story in the moment created an opening for my mom to share her gifts vulnerably with me.
She expressed regret that she and my father had not yet experienced an energy integration session with me. She said that it was too bad that the two of them had not reached out to me to schedule a time for a session. When I was younger in my gift, I had offered my parents an energy healing session. My father had just experienced a major surgery, yet did not take me up on my offer. In the past, I was saddened at their lack of interest.
My mother then expressed her interest in experiencing an energy integration session. This gave me an amazing opportunity to clarify my work and who it is for. I asked her a few qualifying questions. Do you believe that a daily practice of meditating can enhance a person’s life? Can you tell when you have become disconnected from your vitality and passion? Do you feel that you are engaged on a path of addressing your limiting belief patterns and stepping into your power? I told her that clients who answer ‘yes’ to the above questions experience immediate expansion and awareness during a session with me. Clients who answer ‘no’ to the above questions may not be ready to expand their awareness and grow into their highest potential. I released my mother from feeling pressured into experiencing my work. I put the choice in her hands in a different way. I gave her qualifying questions so that she can decide for herself if she is the right fit for experiencing my work. Not everyone is ready. Not everyone is a great fit. Not everyone is ready to expand and open their eyes. I also stepped into my own authority and realized that I didn’t need my mother’s approval. I would be ecstatic if my mother experienced a session with me and grew exponentially, but that is not my decision to make. It is her decision. Enrollment doesn’t have to be hard. The people my work is chosen for will gravitate towards me naturally.
I learned so much on this day, in this conversation with my mother. I learned that my mother has been tapping into her healing powers for years. I learned that my mother is powerful. I learned that as I share my story vulnerably with others, I open the door for them to vulnerably share gifts of their own they may have been hiding. I learned that when I remain open and willing to experience all of life, I will be gifted with a journey filled with amazing stories of wonder and amazement at the power humans have when we tap into the expansiveness that is available to us.
As I step forward in my life with love, courage, and a desire to connect with others, I embark on my adventure in becoming a source of transformation for this world. It is remarkable how capably I can shift. I am curious to know if you have experienced something similar. What stories have you made up about yourself that no longer serve you? What truths are being revealed to you? I’d love to hear your thoughts and reflections.
I hold you high and see you in your truth. Please let me know if I can be of service to your evolution. If you would like to be held energetically through a calm, supportive Reconnective Healing session, I am here. To schedule click HERE.
Holding You in Love & Light,
Andrea Luzon
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